Originally I planned on practicing mon-fri this week, but now it seems that I’m going to have to take a break tomorrow. And then rethink the mornings. I don’t want to miss tomorrow, but I haven’t slept well since saturday, and just need at least one slow morning now. And an evening without preparations.
What I hadn’t thought through was the fact that at this time of the year I need my 30-60 minutes with the bright light lamp every day, preferably in the morning. So basically it’s not possible to wake up later after all. I think I could move my light treatment to afternoons, but I’ll need to experiment a little. It’s also possible that everything will get easier when I’m fully used to the new daily (and weekly) rythm. It’s not a complete chaos anymore, but maybe I could have stuck with 3x a week for a little longer and try this when I’m used to that. Well, I didn’t.
And since there’s nothing wrong with the practice itself, I’m just going to re-arrange my morning blocks for now. (Uuuh, maybe I could make lists of things that work and things that don’t. Lists!) On the mat things have been easy. The weather is getting cooler -I saw actual snow on the way home today- and I think that has finally killed everything I’m allergic to. Breathing has become easier, balancing is easier and in general nothing hurts. And I got Supta konasana today, and it was actually kind of ok. Folding forward (?) upside down is easier than the same thing sitting up.
I had such a bad nightmare last night that the idea of sleeping still feels threatening.
Sometimes it might be a good idea to pay attention to unfortunate tattoos when taking black and white baby photos.
(I often wonder why I still order the paper newspaper for weekends, but at times it’s so worth it.)
Note to self: setting the alarm clock to 7:30 with the option to hit snooze a couple of times does not mean you can have breakfast, shower and get to 8:00 mysore. You can just have breakfast and shower.
Drinking coffee on the way to work was definitely an improvement. That’s still me-time, and completely different from having coffee while already working. I had a random bad day yesterday and at first the spell seemed to continue today too, but I managed to turn things around by taking a two-hour yoga time-out. I was really distracted and anxious in the beginning, but then did some exellent Chaturangas and steady balancing poses on top of them and forgot to be anxious for no reason.
And then I got to have coffee while walking.
Wardrobe plan for the near future
Because I’m scatter brained, and need to get more organized with this. And I’ve had a growing to-do list all day, so why not.
1. Work on knitting Benton sweater.
2. Sew basic t-shirts: two Hemlock tees, still need to cut the strips to finish edges. No sewing done yet.
3. Find fabric for winter-suitable pants, make another pair of Gilbert. Mid-weight wool maybe? Must be black.
4. Check if there’s enough jersey for 1-2 basic tank tops, copy an old one.
5. Decide if Grainline’s Linden would fit in to the master plan.
6. Lurk RdC’s trench coat pattern to see if it’s possible to make a warm wool coat using it. (Although considering that winter will be here in about two seconds from now, making a coat may not be the best idea ever.)
Clean up the closets, there’s lots of random stuff in there.
Because weekend. I’m currently experiencing the kind of extreme tiredness that sometimes follows a long period of stress and things beginning to get sorted out, so I thought it might be a good idea to focus on laundry, knitting and eating toffee today, and save next week’s lunch cooking for tomorrow. Also, I slept 9+ hours last night. Which was nice.
Things not going as planned, part two
Get back home, realize you don’t see your nametag on the door because of migraine aura.
Yup, I thought something funny happened around the right collarbone during Supta kurmasana.